Coffee Diaries:What paralyzes you today?

No Coffee.

While writing this, I just happened to save myself from being groggy, dazed and stupefied for the final half of the day due to a caffeine deficiency. I made this disorder for myself due to an apparent change of force in my body for not taking a cup of coffee early this morning before I started working. This body of mine just set its own alarm of telling me I need an intake of caffeine or else I would again hear my students telling me “You’re like a zombie, Teacher Jirah”. I don’t want to be a coffee dependent  but the more I tried not to, the more I become one. 😛

Anyway, this is not about being a coffee addict. This is about how a simple thing could paralyze us. How about you? What paralyses you today?


Move forward.

I think this is something that is supposed to be easily said than done. How much more is the phrase KEEP MOVING FORWARD. This is a more prolonged imperative than the former and the word “keep” and the tense of the verb which makes it a lot more demanding in every situation when you wanted to just breakdown.

There are so many causes of paralysis as trees has many roots. One cause is to one person would be my approximation since a single mind can make up its own problem and can make it even more complex. However, as I see it, our own mindset wins the crown of causing all of the day-to-day paralyses.

In natural cases, our physical incapability causes us to be stagnant and lead us to the decay of our dreams, goals and our little wants not being satisfied with our extra courageous efforts. Let me call this as “paralysis in physical nature”- complete or partial loss of function especially when involving the motion or sensation in a part of the body as Merriam-Webster defines it.

Our mindset or mental attitude, how we look and take in things around us and how we interpret them, has a much greater contribution on most of the paralyses that existed, that exist and that will exist. Yes, it is the thing to put the blame on. Meaning, the cause is not due to any external stimulus rather it’s internal. Even if the gravely difficult circumstance is offering probabilities and possibilities, an impaired mindset will never see any of these. It’s focus will always be on the side where there are impossibilities and unreasonableness.

So “blame yourself, not the situation! Nah! I knew the feeling of being betrayed by your own way of thinking. I was once a prisoner of my own negative thoughts and partial judgments of the condition I was in and the people I was with. I give due credit to God who opened my eyes to see what I needed to see, to hear what I need to hear, to understand what I needed to understand and to feel what I needed to feel to be able to be in a pace and a place of paralysis-free; it is where He wants me to linger on. It always a process. We learn through time and experiences.

A right perspective on things is a by-product of a healthy mind, a right attitude and a perfect faith on the One who authors everything that happened, that happens and that will happen.

So, shall we have another cup of coffee?


Coffee Diaries: Kick off Week of 2017

How’s the first week of your 2017?
I would say I spent it well.
No overspending.
No oversleeping.
With overeating. Lol (It’s normal for the first week of the year; though I barely know why my weight is fixed in 46.7 kg every time I would step on the scaling platform.)
I dedicated most of those times to my family and friends here in Bangkok and virtually with my immediate family in the Philippines. We went out, shopped (most was window-shopping :P), cooked, ate homemade meals, watched episodic series, rendered service to the church, went bicycling in a known park and threw the mess of 2016 out of our rooms.
I really loved the latter. As a person who has obsessive-compulsive disorder (medically unconfirmed but actions proven lol), I would love to have a fresh environment as this year starts – neatly kept bed adorned with newly changed cover pillows and cottony soft blankets. I love to throw myself into it!
How to have it? Most of the messages I heard this week were about it. So here’s what I learned and hopefully I’ll put these into action this year.
First, “Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead”. Some of us are still bondage of our pasts – broken relationships, failed dreams, unattained goals and unconfessed sins. Time may heal the wounds of the past but at some point it doesn’t work at its best because of the condition of the hearts. It only serves as a concealer for the scars of the past. However, God is just so good to inspire us with His promise that regardless of how bad we may have been, we can all come to Him and experience a reset of our lives.
Second, “Keep order in all aspects of your life”Who would ever want to sleep in a room where shoes, bags and used clothes are all over? Who would ever want to look at a laundry basket overflowing with used clothing which are not even properly folded and ruffled? Not my OC-self either. I think what we need is to evaluate ourselves – on how we spent our time, on how we arrange things, on how we decide on varying matters and on the “WHYs” of everything.
Third, and last, “Carry around a grateful heart”Being thankful isn’t just for the good times but also for the towering burdens and the deepest pools of vexations of life. Be thankful in everything, in all circumstances. Thank God for the people around you, for the food on your plate and for the year-old clothes in your closet.
I thank the Lord for this year, for my life and for your lives.
I wish you had the same great kick off. And, I only hope for a good finish, too!

Coffee Diaries: A Servant’s Psalm

I will sing of Your mercies,

My Lord and My God.

I will sing of Your grace

each day and each night.

I will sing of Your faithfulness

forever and ever.

Heavens will praise Your wonders;

Earth will bow down on Your feet.

For Yours are heavens and the earth

and all its fullness.

To You, my shield belongs.

My armour, You marked

with greatness and power.

In victory, You set my feet.

I will sing “You are Mighty!”

O, Lord, I will

continually sing and always will

for You are Mighty.


Coffee Diaries: Human Mind


Whenever I travel, I would always find myself fascinated by works of men – the towering buildings, the exquisitely architectured houses, the statues meeting the zenith line, marbled streetpaths, the dramatic styles of lightposts, the glassware displays on the coffee tables and many others. I’m amazed how these things were just a mere spark of idea turned into tangible proofs of existence! That’s how amazing the human mind can be!

I thank the Creator who caused the human minds to function at its present capability. Indeed, He’s the Author of everything!


Ephesians 3: My heart’s Cry

Ephesians 3: My heart’s Cry

Strengthened me with might, O, Lord,
Dwell in my heart through faith
That I may be rooted and grounded in Your love.
Filled me with Your fullness, O, Lord.
Grant everything according to Your will and glory;
Do not lose heart at me.
Draw me closer to You
And cover me by Your precious blood.

On Sailor’s Boat



One day a sailor asked me

     to join his ride – a fearless escape from reality.

I got into his boat with glees –

with reservations though.

Away from the shore,

     we’re filled with contentment and delights.

Waves and wind danced with us;

     caressed our oars and craft.


Then storm came,

hard wind blew.

Wrecking our boat and driving us back –

to the shore.

For a moment I thought, why does reality drag me back

whenever I choose to courageously depart?


The storm set on,

wind blew harder.

Wrecking our boat and driving us back –

to the shore.

Still the sailor assured me of a safe voyage.


Chocolates and flowers in most corners

Huggable bears on baskets and so

Bright red hearts hung and posted

In varying bits and pieces and sizes too

Replicas of cupid with bows and arrows

Ready to shoot a charge of love in every heart

Beating so perfectly for its other half.


Spells out this season

A season for those hearts filled with amorous affection

A season for those hearts bind by years of warmth

A season for a hopeful heart looking for its match

A season for young and not so young

A season of hugs and kisses

A season for all

A season for a happy heart and its twin soul.


Sabi Mo…


Sabi Mo…

Busilak ang iyong hangarin

Damdami’y mananatili anuman ang suungin.

Sabi Mo…

“Gagawin lahat, O aking giliw,

Mabigyan lamang ng saya’t aliw”.

Sabi Mo…

Pahahalagahan ang nilaang tiwala

Walang gagawin upang ito’y mabalewala.

Subalit ngayo’y anong nangyari ?

Luha’t pighati ngayo’y naghahari

Di mo nga lang ba napanindigan?

O sadyang ang lahat ay SABI MO lang.

Puso nga Naman :P


Kailangan ba talagang mainlove?

Pabigat ba?

O Sadyang saya ang dala?

Ay, ewan!

Puso nga naman..

“Gudmorning, tsup!” sa umaga.
“Gudnyt, mua:*” sa gabi.

Isali mo pa ang

“wag kang magpagutom ha…’

At “mag-iingat ka <3”

Hatid sa pagpasok si babae.

Sundo pa yan panigurado nitong si lalake.

Di ka ba nauumay, pre?

Halos araw-araw ata ganire,

Pasalamat na lang kung may halik sa pisngi.

Ito pa…

Sa kondisyon ni gurl,

Boy, wag kang sasabat.

Kundi daig mo pa ang sundalong,

sa giyera, dala ay sibat.

Kasabay sa pagsaulo ng Bill of Rights,

imemorays din ang petsa

kung kailan mo nakuha ang matamis na “OO”.

Para sa mansari nyo,

(Anibersari kung papalarin kayo =)

Ulo ng syota mo wag uminit sayo, iho.

Tsokolate, teddybear at rosas

Dagdag mo pa ang kain sa labas

Bulsa kaya’y di mabutas?

Isipin din ang bukas

Para iwas malas.

Oops. Awat muna..

Oi, Gurl, ikaw nman ang ibibida.

Mukha mo’y laging ingatan.

Si boy lagi yang tititigan.

Pero wag  mo naming pakapinturahan

Baka pagkamalang atsuete yan.

Sa daan, wag kang mabibigla.

Kung kamay mo’y hawak na niya.

E, Akbay pa nga yan kung minsan.

Sabihan si boy na wag lalabisan

Para sakto lang kung titingan.

Wag din palang isantabi,

Damit mo, binibini.

Brand new man yan o U.K ‘te,

Isuot lamang kung bagay at Keri.

Mas simple, mas swabe.

Sandali lang, hahabol pa.

Di mawawala ang away sa eksena.

LQ daw sabi nila.

Ito lang ang payo ko, kuya,

Sa pagsuyo, ikaw na ang mauna.

Tama ka man at mali siya.

Mahirap na madali ang drama.

Ang simpleng pagtext noon.,

Animo’y matinding obligasyon na ngayon.

Di bale, ikaw naman ay masaya,

Kasama mo pa siya, e, di maganda.

Hay, kaya pala naiinlove,

Dagdag kulay sa buhay na minsa’y malamlam.

Pambihirang puso nga naman.

Akala ko pagtibok lang ang alam.

Pati pala kakornihan

At ang isang bagay na nakakawindang –

PAG-IBIG ata tawag dyan.